Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Corridor over the nurses station and have a similar conversation side room where the same

 No activity in the solitude of the conversation appears to

room with a few sofas, iron chair, there is a full size larger TV.

conversation room inside the twenty-eight-inch CRT TV is also playing today, nothing

special Chinese New Year special programs and special events so boring in front of a

female audience. I can not see from behind her looks, but her back looks very young;

than words such as women, may be more suitable for 』『 girls to call her.

(... ... is a junior high school students? Or students do?)

wearing her pink pajamas, petite body showing an immature atmosphere. That a waist long

hair makes me feel impressive.



With the idea of an inexplicable, not any particular intent, I walked up and intend to

call out the girl. Goes on the side faces you see, I could not help a bit shocked.

- she looks very cute ... ... - No, maybe than cute, I should use the beautiful, or to

describe the delicate and charming.

seems to really like her face between the primary and junior high girls between the

same, but she looks beautiful but is sending out a distinctive sense of being unique. I

am not what

pedophilia, no different from ordinary people's habit, but I think her beauty even if

most people walking on the road and her passing, one hundred percent amazing everyone

to go back see her son.

at this time, I do not know why the brain actually emerged out of a close friend not

seen for months? moon face. I think he should have been handed a girlfriend now, right?

No dirty thoughts, I walked into this conversation in the room the moment, a sudden

emergence of an inexplicable chest throbbing.

I thought, like a little girl what her body something to make her glow with this

glorious it ... ... I thought, looking at her face, a careless God, look out.

I looked at her, my heart is anxious to make me want to smooth out any conversation

with her words, but at this time noticed her hand plastic bracelet.

(that is white ... ... ... ... same with my bracelet.)

In other words, she is dying to live in the convalescent ward patient.

I found this in the same time, my chest that kind of throbbing suddenly sunk down at

once; had just chatted and she is so desperately wants and can not find appropriate

words have a sense of anxiety when also disappear. I do not know what is the reason I

appear so great psychological gap, but true to say, maybe she, like me, to the future

of the doors were blocked. I sensed such a harsh reality, it makes me feel so right

response. 
when my heart is so no longer had just filled with surging impulses, and can not find

appropriate words of anxiety, but as the face of half of an ordinary little girl talk.



face my questioning, she just simply to answer the sentence. Ease compared to the

impulse of my heart, and her answer a lot of even more cool. Even if I am out of

Shenghuan

her, she did not look back, but look boring to always stared at the TV screen.

(... ... really so boring So, do you also see it doing?)

side I think,UGG bailey button, while iron in the conversation room and sat down

folding stool, and played with her watching TV. In addition, I have not other things to

do; or that I can not do anything.

reflected on the screen is always produced in early New Year special programs; not some

silly impersonation show that some improvisation. In addition, there are programs like

the host of smiling like a fool's voice occasionally echoes alone in the sunny white

room. 
Suddenly, she spoke. Even her eyes still look forward to the TV screen, but these words

are against me. 

I think I did not answer her question, but she would have went ahead a definition for

me. 
She nodded, and then I explained, this side of the unwritten rules that people have for

the first time people came to the seventh floor of the ward that side of things. But

... ... Why the unwritten rule?

she spoke up with a gentle tone Zhang: 
I listen to her with his right, of which there are many parts and I heard from the

doctors there, some different.

described according to the doctor, this layer is the hospital ward to provide patients

waiting for medical technology has come a rest place for the patients who said this is

the place soothes the soul. I think for most people, this is not wrong to say that,

right? However, the girl said to me, this is just this purpose the establishment of

dying infirmary wards,bailey UGG boots, but in fact not the case.

she said, this layer of the seventh floor inside the hospital ward is this the only

place where no medical practice. In other words, here is purely for the death of

patients waiting for a quiet place.

In fact, I think so too. She and I are the significance of the existence of this layer

unit has the same view. 
Then she went on to explain. I learned from her mouth, this layer does not seem to come

in the seventh floor unit will be straight until after death. Patients admitted here,

although the disease can be treated,Discount UGG boots, but if a slight improvement in

physical condition, the hospital will be permission to return home to recuperate.

However, once again deteriorated, then the patient used to live here have to come back

here again.

In other words, this layer was admitted to the seventh floor ward, not die here, that

is, back then had a chance to die at home; to such two kinds of outcomes, it seems that

no one had been spared.

and she is living a second time came. 
... ... She looked at the garbage on TV, and then continue to say to her in the finish.

The words say, not the general hospital said the patient's lights out time and so

listening to the rules of the ward, but this layer of the theorem wards ... ...

『If you notice the third time the hospital can be discharged, you must be

psychologically prepared. Because there will never be the fourth time ... ... the third

time after discharge and then moved in, you can never go home. 』

『If you want to run away, do not select the A station, but that to the B station. 』

『If you want to end it all, then the hunger strike is the fastest method, but also the

least affordable way to bring family members. 』

sort of content to listen to in my ears, like she was forcibly instilled into her mind

the provisions. These provisions, I am afraid this is only the seventh floor of the

ward admitted patients - those who will die between the word of mouth. 
her after these last words, I walked over it Qishen Zhao. At the same time she and I

walked, head of flowing hair that go past my eyes. 
Then she went straight to me stranded in this room, talking heads, leave alone the

other end toward the corridor. At this point I left around the old CRT TV speakers

inside laughter coming artists, and the window display of white flowers.

result, she and I meet from the last to leave her, she never once set his sights on me.
New Year special programs of the time has finally come to an end, and junior and senior

high school third term is also almost out. That day, the girl's figure still appears in

the nurses station the other end of the conversation room, wildly staring eyes tightly

to buckle on the TV. 
This is the dialogue between us, but the sight of each other but do not remove the TV

screen. 
seventh floor room inside this layer, except I told the girl; doctors, nurses, and

occasionally can be seen outside of priests and caregivers to no other people come in

before. 
so if it seems to be no form of dialogue in our response to the cold.

only fifteen centimeters wide open sent a little breeze outside the window, sometimes

lifted her long hair and white flowers in the window.

me and her, sitting in this room, talk to kill time watching boring TV.

... ... words, this layer of the seventh floor unit very rarely see other shadows.

Slightly younger patients where the only two people I talked to her only, and the rest

is at most a few elderly people in wheelchairs out occasionally nodding out. Therefore,

the two of us sitting in this conversation with the room stares at the television

accounted for a considerable time to a relatively large proportion. 
fact, I really have very little to ask, then answer and later in her stay silent mouth.

basically whatever the little girl said to me, nothing will open eyes on me. Even

occasional exceptions, she saw me with sullen eyes are also like a serious expression.

And she looks like people stare at her facial features Duanli contrast, the total would

result exudes a breathtaking courage.

In fact, even her tone of voice when speaking are also used in the face of young people

than their own is so sloppy attitude, all behavior makes me think this kid is really

hard to understand some . 
one of the older nurse said as she walked into the room this conversation.

I occasionally glanced in the case of the nursing station, guess she is probably the

seventh floor of the ward nurse it. 
Seto chun ... ... So this is what the United States this little girl's name. 
the nurse called out that remark, followed the United States against the girl called

Seto Jin Tao Tao Nianlejiju, and she - Seto-chun is a do not think the United States

intended to look like nothing ignored, despite the wordy nurse went on to say

something, just keep watching boring TV shows.



the older nurses leave this sentence, he turned to leave the conversation room, back to

the nursing station.

After opening with the name called out her name. 
I would not because some people think I'm young and angry. Although I do have a baby

face, but I want to see how my age is far greater than her. Anywhere from her to her

five or six, or even year-old is also possible. Therefore, I will receive my chest

pocket in the driver's license out to light in front of her, said: 

She glanced at my license, and then spit out a disdain brief conclusion. 
when she still did not answer any expression. And those eyes, eyes tightly buckle on

the TV though, but it seems they like looking at an unknown place deep in sight.
- a few days later.

I finished the morning temperature record, a person walking in the restaurant attached

to the road leading to the first floor.

I have not come to this hospital a few months the attached restaurant.

This is a very spacious attached restaurant, inside the dining table for about two or

three hundred.

this day did not seem to open out-patient hospital, the entire restaurant looked empty.

from the hospital before I fixed the time, there lived on the fourth floor room, I

would come here to eat. But since I live in a seventh floor room, this is my first time

here and then to dinner.

coffee is good? Or ice cream is good ... ... I stand before the entrance voucher

vending machine hesitated what to do not know what that point. The reason I hesitate is

that this is not entirely different from the price of meals, but before these two meals

are among the prohibited items in the doctor, but after I was admitted to the seventh

floor room, the doctor said the ban is lifted , as long as no binge eating, or eat too

much spicy food, eating has been no other restrictions. 
I am eating, breathing inside the restaurant attached to the side of ice provided

muttered.

is already now in my hands every half a year did not eat vanilla ice cream. Not so much

that it is good, it is more a kind of nostalgic flavor.

I left the restaurant after eating ice cream, came near the central elevator. At this

time, I saw the door standing in the hospital

side the girl looked at the door - Seto-chun, the United States. I think she probably

just come back outside the hospital. As for the hospital she did not get the leave of

absence? I think it was not.

Seto chun just before the United States to leave the hospital because of arbitrary and

scolded by the nurses, I guess she has become a habitual offender was Bacheng.

(... ... She should not, in fact, this hospital is to escape it ... ...)

surfaced in my mind this possibility, while the once you want to say anything to dispel

the idea stopped her.

I looked at his watch. Half past ten. 
I muttered to the hospital gate, being careful to not allow nurses or doctors

discovered that secretly slipped out of the door.

out of the hospital door to the moment, chilly winter wind as if an ordinary needle

puncture into the cone of my flesh being. The atmosphere is so cold, let me in just ten

seconds to thin for their own wearing only a hospital gown has slipped out of this

regret o

I Su Zhao body, shivering in the cold wind forward toward the destination - and this

place is when I first heard was admitted to the seventh floor ward, B station.

- ward for patients admitted to the seventh floor, if not die in the seventh floor unit

is dead ... ... ... ... at home ... ... no one except

However, if the want to escape it, according to those provisions, the destination

station should not be set at A, but B station. And she, Seto probably have been to the

United States and Jin B station several times. 
even out of my mind's eye this question, but we should not be any monitoring personnel

around my son. However, just as I did, I realized, we seventh floor of the ward for

patients with other patients who in fact can not be compared.

I do not know this thing is true, but seems to have appeared in the seventh floor unit

is that such a troubled patient. He left the hospital without permission, always let

the hospital doctors as he was quite worried. I heard that he came to the end of life

when the way of escape from this hospital is not a tram, drove with him by friends to

escape.

not really have to monitor the staff ... ... I thought, walking in the morning, the

road leading to the station.

I walk the line for a while, about twenty-five minutes later to the front of the

station; converted into the bus ride, about four stops away.



pajamas at the bus stop because I am still attracted a lot of Lee are skeptical eye,

but this fall it will not represent a problem.

- to escape from the hospital, then we would escape to the B station ... ... view the

content of these provisions really do not leave; as long as I bought his ticket,

probably want to go can to Come. 
If she really wants to escape, the fact is that easy ... ... I stood in the morning

fishes station, watching the quick step between the passage of the crowd. After a while

I turned back to the hospital to go back.

night, shortly after Ward's lights out time. I'm tired of watching cartoons on hand,

but also could not sleep, so a person in the hospital shaking inside.

general, turn off the lights after the hospital patients in the ward, if there will be

nurses outside Luanhuang read, but the seventh floor ward of our patients in this area

is relatively free many.

turn the lights on the dark corridor to my room after dark when the conversation, the

girl's figure appeared in the inside. 
conversation dark room, Seto-chun, the United States back then, but always on the line

of sight outside the window. I face her, and intends to speak to tell her what happened

today. 
her reaction and the normal is no different; never write to my head in the direction of

the way answer is always the tone of cold spit out short words.

I thought about running away from this hospital, she heard the words before I say what

a different reaction.

after I actually try to know to get away from this hospital is actually quite simple.

And from this point of view, is not she did not intend to do you want to run away ...

... 
she suddenly open, spit out the words seems to be for my expectations to say.
I want to go back 』『 she said the hospital should be discharged to convalesce at home

she had consented to it.

this layer of the seventh floor ward, it seems that no one through the third hospital

and later discharged alive. Particularly those living in side of the patient, their

rate of deterioration than those of us young people to fast, so the second hospital and

discharged the situation is even more unlikely to occur in their bodies. At this time I

Seto Tianjin United States, because the body it seems healthy, so no need to move a

wheelchair. Do not do this because we are young, relative to the rate of deterioration

is not so fast to our old relationship.

... ... However, like our older patients, the condition began to deteriorate once the

breath will turn into a very serious results. Therefore, it is ironically, all the

patients seem to stay young and healthy inside this layer of the seventh floor unit is

actually very short time. Because of this reason, as we have the seventh floor of these

young patients discharged from hospital in the course of a few, the chance of reunion

living relative is very limited. Therefore, where she had represented in that sentence

meaning is a kind of farewell.
death 』『 I heard the term, let me show a sudden loss of consciousness, do not know

what to do. 
in her words, muttered a lonely mood.

In fact, this issue is not offensive, because I can not always live here. My future is

like the seventh floor of the other patients, as in repeatedly discharged during

hospitalization health deteriorates, and not die in this layer of the seventh floor

unit is surrounded by his family in a false smile I close my eyes forever . 
She said she was neither like his home, not like this layer of the seventh floor ward.

However, she obviously can escape, but now they are still here ... ... I think these

two fundamentally contradictory, and he began to ask: 
She was silent for children.
She looked out the window and blurted out with a cold tone of this last sentence.

During a session she still remains never to their own eyes on me.

first came here I was told that the third patient discharge that is the life of our end

of the seventh floor; and will meet in front of her second hospital convalescent home

established arrangements for ... ... now I am For the immediate reality of the body can

not produce recognition. Therefore, her mouth said it all, for me, still like a

television screen go past a certain period in the story.

But ... ... is not there one day, my face will emerge out of her face like it ... 
- a few days later.

this day, before dawn, they began to rain. Occasionally floating in the snow weather,

only the endless rain from heaven. And I, it is also a place to stay that vaguely fixed

TV screen.

seventh floor today, few people still hang around outside the ward. 
she came from the outside, throw a question to me. Get an answer,UGGs, she would not

continue to speak, quietly We find a metal folding chair and sat down. So, we sat

together as usual in the conversation room, watching boring TV.

... ... I think she probably like me, there is no better to do other things - or, we

simply can not do anything. 
At this point, she was curious to the scene in front of television played a reaction.
not - even though her answer was this sentence as usual, the response was shown subtly

different. This change also makes me surprised, then followed with the attention put on

the TV top.

screen shone an unknown forest landscape. Where the thick woods and blooming with wild

flowers, looks very beautiful. Among these, the hills are covered with white flowers

make people feel impressed.

- I recognize this flower.

in this natural landscape of white flowers, appearance, and now we plug in vases on the

window sill beside the flowers are very similar. 
hand I said, pointing to the TV in the picture, and the window in the white bottle.
She glanced at the window flower bottle, and then turned around and facing the TV

began. And after I heard her denial, but how can not distinguish the difference between

the two.

For me, what a difference two flowers actually no difference. In contrast, I'd normally

never would have made the topic of interest to her, this time the attitude shown made

me feel more interested in some.

she really looks very cute appearance, but usually they develop a fully for the things

I did not mind the empty eyes, but at this time to say to me, with little in-depth

response. 

I looked back and forth at a loss reflected in the white TV picture tubes, and she goes

in the side faces extend bloom at the flowers, then asked:
fact, I am really simply had no interest in these flowers, but still casually threw a

few words to continue to test her reaction.

However, at this time and she immediately gave it back to a normal attitude to ignore

people like that, without a word line of sight back to the boring TV on top.

seeing this dialogue process should end at this point to look at I do not have any

intention to go back to look at my TV
she began at the same time, the initial line of sight to move my body; turned around

the moment also played a waist belt to draw a wavy long hair, hand pointing to the TV

screen and looked directly at me .

Then I noticed, her white skin and a white bracelet on the wrist, almost white flowers

with the TV shows in the same color.

the first time opposite my face, seems to evoke a hint of a smile if it seems to be no.

- Over the past few days, the cold winter, the time has come.

in the outside there are many students are preparing for the entrance examination

season, we still stay in the nursing station the other end of the conversation room,

bored watching TV. 
talk in such a dialogue can not be called, we are still doing unnecessary things to

spend extra time. 
before the so-called left is that she told me, the hospital discharged her permission

to do. 
In fact, in accordance with established practice, even if she can no longer alive, back

to this layer of the seventh floor ward, and only then the chance. By that time, I

probably still not at home, this layer is also the seventh floor ward. But I think we

meet here the opportunity to perhaps not so high. 
her look with a nod a little lonely. I think this is not the first time do not know,

some people discharged reaction? After all, such a thing to me, death has not yet

recognized the vital body, and for the first time the license was discharged nursed

back to health, doctors still did not mention.

... ... saying that she does not know the answer to this question is not already

decided exactly? I remember she seemed to have said, she not only hated home, but also

hate the hospital ... ...



speaker was suddenly talking in this room of an elderly woman, I think this is probably

the mother of Seto Jinmei it.

She has long hair, wearing a stylish coat and looks not so much a mother, I would

rather that she is more like an older sister. 

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